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Random Journal Entry 3: 2017-01-06

Hey guys! Been a while since I wrote a random journal!

First thing I did when I woke up: Checking my phone the moment I open my eyes.

Highlight of the day: Catching up with friends. Wasn’t really a great day but moments with friends are always wonderful and memorable.

I am feeling: Slightly upset and disappointed. Reason why will be a secret *hush*

Random Thoughts: Why do some people keep chasing after the wrong person? Love is blind, they say. I actually did chase after someone before but I later realize who the hell I’m chasing after. I just knew he’s not the one. It’s really hard to tell if that someone is “the one” because there are billions of people on Earth and the chances of finding the right person is just quite impossible if you think about it, but somehow destiny finds its way to make the impossible possible. Oh well.

Today is a s0-s0 day. Good that I got to spent time with my friends, and not so good because some of my friends are experiencing problems, personal problems. Hope everything goes well soon since my birthday is coming up in the next two weeks.

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The 7 Years of Running Man

Ok, I don’t know how I will start this. It’s been a week, or two, or more, since the issue regarding the cast, and the show itself came out. I am still feeling devastated about the sudden announcement of the end of my favourite Korean variety show. And words can’t really express my frustrations right now.

I started watching Running Man 4 years ago. Seeing the first episode, I already got hooked. It was difficult for me to stop watching for more episodes. There was even a time when I did a marathon of 30 episodes in one day. Oh well, I just could not get myself to stop. Since then, I have devoted myself to watch Running Man every week. And I look forward to Mondays because english subbed episodes of Running Man are out every Monday. Since I am a student, I get stressed with school works, assignments, etc. and Running Man has been my stress reliever. Thinking that I spent my last 4 years with them and I felt like a part of me was ripped off and teared apart, what more to the cast members that spent 7 years together as a family?

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Screenshot from Running Man episode 1

The show is well organized, and I praised the writers for being very creative. Of course, the name tag elimination is what makes the show unique from other Korean variety shows and that is what Running Man is known for. The format was very creative but suddenly, it kind of changed the last 2 or 3 years. It is still Running Man but the trademark of the show which is the name tag elimination game is given less emphasis which made me, and some viewers, a bit disappointed.

However, the members ability to provide laughter for the viewers did not change. Other than that, I’d say the relationship between the members and the staff is what makes Running Man different. The members are just perfect for the show, even though at times, most times rather, they don’t agree on some things.

I seriously do not understand why their ratings in Korea are so low. Well, the show started well until it fluctuated in the last 2 or 3 years. I was thinking that SBS did not mind it’s low ratings because the show itself is popular across the globe, especially in Asia. They have millions of fans around the world, and these people, including me, are probably hurting right now because of one careless move. But still, I am not blaming SBS or Running Man PDs for what happened because I don’t know the real story.

Screenshot from Running Man episode 134 in Vietnam
Screenshot from Running Man episode 134 in Vietnam

We all know that nothing is permanent in the world, and everything comes to an end. Nothing lasts forever but the memories. Since Gary left the show, I already thought of the “domino effect” that soon, one by one, members will leave. However, I did not expect it to come so soon. The end results of a one careless act surely did not give positive results. It could’ve ended in a much better way. It was just a mess. It made me frustrated because I believe Running Man deserved better.

I am still saddened by the news. I am writing this entry right after I watch Running Man episode 330. I decided to write this entry because I don’t think I can still go on and watch the next episode. Since the news, I stopped watching. Not because of the misunderstanding that happened between the cast and the staff of Running Man but because my heart hurts seeing them laughing together, playing games together, and to think that soon (a month from now) it will all be gone. I don’t know if I should laugh or cry whenever Jae Suk hits Kwang Soo, or when Jong Kook bullies the members, or when Suk Jin does his body gags. Usually I laugh the whole time I watch Running Man to the point my jaw hurts from laughing, but now I can’t. I just can’t. Thinking that those moments will be gone soon makes me cry. I can’t believe there’s going to be no Running Man 2 months from now.

Screenshot from Running Man episode 270

Blackpink as guest in episode 330

Screenshot from Running Man episode 330

I will not hope for any show that will have them together again because there is a low possibility they will be put together again in one show. Honestly speaking, I don’t think I will ever see another group of members with so much chemistry together like the Running Man members. I do watch other Korean variety shows but I noticed one thing that only members of Running Man possess, GENUINITY. I don’t know how will I explain it because if you are an avid Running Man fan, you know what I’m talking about. The members show genuine reactions and feelings on the show. They also treasure their fans and treat them like family. Also, they don’t try hard but their ability to provide laughter just comes out naturally. It is effortless. They may also not notice their own actions while the cameras are rolling, but we viewers do. Those simple caring acts they do to each other make me smile.

Screenshot from Running Man episode 171

I will surely miss Running Man. The memories they shared in the past  7 years can’t be compared to the memories I had with them in the last 4 years. In the last 4 years, I ran with them. Though I wasn’t physically spending time with them, I supported them. I laughed with them. I cried with them. I cheered for them. They may never know me personally but they will always have a special place in my heart.

Screenshot from Running Man episode 171

For sure, they will remain in contact with each other. It’s just sad to think we may never get to see them together on camera anymore. They have worked together, built friendship, and became a family in the last 7 years. All I can say is a big THANK YOU Running Man. Thank you our Grasshopper-Yoo Jae Suk, Impala-Ji Suk Jin, Tiger-Kim Jong Kook, Monkey-Kang Gary, Penguin-HaHa, Miss Blank-Song Ji Hyo, and Giraffe-Lee Kwang Soo. I will miss you guys! I don’t think anything can replace Running Man in my heart.

Until we meet again. #7012RM

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One Cold Summer Day

I never wanted to look back.
I tried to forget.
But my mind cannot seem to stop remembering
one of the most heartbreaking seconds of my life.

I am still reminded of the awkward silence between you and me.
The moment that has become my sweetest nightmare.
As I see the coldness in your eyes, and your face turning pale,
all at once it has hit me.
No spoken words are needed.
Cold stillness is all there is,
the warmest response you can give.

Then I walked away with no intention of turning back.
Towards the brightness of the sun,
with thoughts of feeling the warmth I long to feel.
For it is the only answer I can give
on a one cold summer day.

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Random Journal Entry 2: 2016-06-02

Hi there!

First thing I did when I woke up: Wash my face 🙂

Highlight of the day: Secret 😉

I am feeling: Hmmmm….what should I feel?? I feel energized. T’was a great day!

Random Thoughts: I don’t know if I should pursue being in a relationship. My friends, and my parents, tell me that having a boyfriend is a pain in the ass. You have to stay committed and so many things in your life will change.Though I’m not in a hurry but I feel that these things     like dating    are things that I should experience by now, isn’t it? I’ve never dated and that is, for me, worrisome.


Today is a GREAT day for me! I was a bit grumpy when I woke up (because of my monthly visitor *rolls eyes*)  at five in the morning but the sight of HIM immediately changed my mood.

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Random Journal Entry 1: 2016-04-19


First thing I did when I woke up: WASHROOM (I’m not gonna go into details ^_- )

Highlight of the day:  I picked up my sister from school FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER, with my dad of course. Though its been a while since I got my driver’s license, I couldn’t really drive too far away from home since my parents won’t let me drive further without them *sigh*.

I am feeling: HAPPY!!! And INSPIRED!!!!

Random thoughts: Right now, I’m just happy that I’m able to write entries in my blog again. It’s been a  while     three months     I really missed it.

Today isn’t that great of a day but it feels good to be living at the moment. Forget about the things that stresses you out. Live HAPPILY and think POSITIVE!!!!



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Perhaps Love ?

(WARNING: This entry contains cheesiness, and I apologize beforehand.)


I really don’t understand.

It was totally unexpected.

Have you guys ever had this moment when you all of a sudden realize you have special feelings for someone you never expected?

One morning, I woke up with him on my mind. And for the whole day, he’s the only one in my mind. It’s very hard to explain it in words. No proper words can fully describe what love is. But could I consider this feeling to be love?

Is this what being in love is like? I’ve had crushes before and its always been one-sided. Its always me expecting something from the other party, and eventually ends up with me in agony. But this time, I can’t understand the feelings I have for him. I am very confused, up to this point. Honestly, looking back on my past flings and one-sided infatuations, they weren’t that great either. I’m the type of woman who looks on what’s inside more than on the outside.

He wasn’t my ideal type nor someone I’m dreaming to be with someday. He ain’t that Mr. Perfect I’ve been thinking about. He isn’t that great of a guy physically but I guess its his personality that caught my eye. I’ve only known him for a short period of time. And we only see each other twice, but mostly once, a week. But in those short moments I’m spent with him, he left my heart baffled in a cloud of confusion. Whenever I see him or with simply just the thought of  him, I get this butterflies in my stomach and my heart starts beating really really fast.

I found a quote somewhere and it says, “Sometimes, you can’t really say what you see in a person. It’s the way they take you to another place nobody else can.” I guess it’s true, at least in my case. He makes everyone around him annoyed, but at the same time, gives them laughter. Yes, he is quite immature but whenever I look in his eyes, I sense a sense of maturity within him. We never really talked deeply before but we tease each other, call each other with funny nicknames. And I know myself that its my way of conversing or expressing my affection since I’m not the type to be cheesy or showy to people I love. I tease my friends the same way but with him, I feel like both of us are in a world where nobody else could be. Is this really what being in love is like?

I really have no idea what I see in him that makes my heart flutter whenever he’s around. Though I said that it’s possibly his personality that I adored but truthfully speaking, I still couldn’t decipher what my heart is telling me. My feelings for him is still undefined. They say, “No words can express what love is.”  Perhaps, am I in-love with him?



P.S: This entry made me cringe a lot since I am not the type of person to express cheesiness. Ironic eh?

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I’m Sorry

She stood in front of me,

broken, unnoticeable.

With my teary eyes,

I stared at her.

And saw her fiery eyes staring back at me.

For a long time,

we stood and never moved.

She seemed to open her mouth

to utter words I seem to be longing to hear.

I waited.


Tears ran down her cheeks as I muttered

“You’ve changed. A lot.”

A river of tears answered.

A teardrop, one after the other

rolled on my cheeks as I mumbled,

“I’m sorry.”

Posted in THE K-FEVER


I actually don’t know how to start this! Okay so, since I came to Canada, I became EVEN MORE addicted to Korean dramas & variety shows, and K-pop. The reason being, is we got an even faster internet connection, and WiFi is everywhere, therefore I always have my phone in hand surfing the net. I’m always on the net almost every minute, every second of my life. If people ask me why I love Korean shows,  I say couple different reasons depending if its a drama, a show/variety/talk show, or a K-pop group. And here are some of them:

  1. ON K-DRAMAS: Most Korean dramas are short, its easy to do a marathon and finish it fast. However, freaking drama withdrawals almost…… always gets me insane to the point of sending myself to a mental institute!!!!!!!!!! (Sorry that’s too exaggerating, isn’t it?) I always end up going back, rewatching the cute moments and there, same cycle. I still get the same emotions on that specific scene. There are times I wish I was the female lead, not only because the male lead is hot    fiery hot    but sometimes, they’re too dumb or let’s say naive. Maybe I should blame the director for it, or the writer, but give us a female lead who is not always clueless or too weak or too fragile. But on another note, I still like K-dramas. I will always have to find another drama because it is one of my stress-relievers. Anyone with me?
  2. ON K-VARIETY SHOWS: Korean variety shows are so funny! When they make people laugh, its effortless. Needless to say, they only need themselves to make us viewers laugh. They would rather make fun of their appearance or their colleague’s to give laughter. Or they would do some kind of slapstick comedy or body gag which, of course, gives off good vibes to the viewers. Other times, the actions they do are enough to provide laughter. It’s probably where other countries’ variety shows lack.  If you are an ultimate Running Man and 1N2D (1 Night, 2 Days) fan, you will most likely understand my point *wink wink*.
    (From Running Man episode 278) Yoo Jae Suk and Lee Kwang Soo dancing to Michael Jackson’s “Thriller”.

    (From Running Man episode 270) Ji Seok Jin falls from his chair after his comment.
  3. ON K-POP: Well, for this, if you’re a die-hard K-pop fan, especially of boy groups then I have nothing to say. Just kidding! One reason I’m so into K-pop is because of their looks, especially for boy groups. I just wanna fangirl LOL!! Everytime I see my bias, *speechless* hahahaha!! You know what it feels like ^_^ For girl groups, most of the time I just wanna follow their style in fashion. Second reason is their songs. Sometimes, I only like a certain K-pop group because of their songs and other times because of one person I most likely have seen on Running Man. Though I couldn’t understand and sing the lyrics properly, I try following the rhythm and the tune. Well, I’m the type of person who goes for upbeat or mellow music. I’ve been into Super Junior, VIXX, Got7, BTOB, B2ST, APink, Sistar, and many more. But recently, I’m so obsessed to iKon’s B.I <3<3 He’s so cuuuuuttteeee!!!
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The AlDub Phenomenon

Alden Richards serenading Maine Mendoza with the song “God Gave Me You”

If you’re not yet familiar with the phenomenal loveteam of the Philippines, AlDub, then you better be. This love team is an exceptional one. No LTs has ever done this to me.  Made me a twitter addict and to be honest, the only LT who made me pray for their FOREVER. Their natural chemistry is truly undeniable. The best OTP so far!

Anyway, here are my thoughts about this….

Being a Filipino, I am greatly familiar with Filipino cultures, values, traditions, and their television shows. One day I was scrolling on my facebook feed and saw several people sharing the same video of AlDub. I saw Alden    my ultimate crush     on the video, as well as this girl whose dubsmash videos went viral on social media, Maine Mendoza. At first, I disliked the idea of Alden being paired up with another girl because believe it or not, I was a DenLou (Alden Richards & Louise de los Reyes) fan. I’ve seen them together in several shows and dramas, such as Mundo Mo’y Akin, Spooky Nights, & My Beloved and I am sincerely hoping that they somehow become real. However, I went on watching their kilig moments (because of Alden)……and boom! I got hooked. I couldn’t stop laughing and somehow I found myself liking their tandem. I also found myself liking Maine Mendoza/Yaya Dub. They look great together.  And from then on, I always look forward to what’s going to happen next in Kalyeserye (term provided by Joey de Leon    one of the hosts of Eat Bulaga     as a title to the story of AlDub). Each episode, a lesson learned. Laughter, crying, love, and horror, all types of emotions in one. The smiles they stamp on each people’s face is extremely priceless.Truly making AlDub and Kalyeserye the hottest and most intriguing topic in television and social networking sites such as facebook and twitter.

And to those who are giving negative comments about AlDub and Kalyeserye     though its mostly about AlDub    hold up! Maybe you feel threatened by what they can and will do. If you can’t see the chemistry and magic they possess, there is definitely something wrong with you. But then again, we can’t please everyone!

Alden Richards hugs Maine Mendoza.

If you still think they are not that popular, then tell me why they sold out all 55,000 tickets for their “Tamang Panahon” episode? Give me a reason why everytime they endorse a product, the sales increase rapidly, about a triple or quadruple times? Why are they always mobbed whenever they’re in a concert, or simply just in a mall show? If you can’t come up with a reason, too bad. You have no right to comment negative things about them, such as them not being that popular, or them just using each other for show. They actually caught the hearts of Filipinos of all ages. Definitely an undeniable popularity, thus making them a phenomenon of this generation.

I haven’t met these two personally. However, based on the people who have met them off cam, they all say the same things about them; they are both humble and very down to earth. With that, I can say that they truly deserve the blessings that God is showering upon them.

Alden Richards and Maine Mendoza singing “God Gave Me You”

As for me   and the whole Aldubnation    the only thing we can do is pray. Let’s not pressure them to be together right away. Let everything flow naturally. Let them get to know each other even more. With all our prayers, and with millions of people supporting these two, I believe that one day we will see what we’ve been waiting for   and that is them becoming reel to real    and hopefully it lasts forever. All we have to do is pray and let those two do the work. All in God’s perfect time.

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ONE DAY . . .

One day I found you,

Walking up the staircase, scrolling through your phone.

One day I stared at you,

Scrutinizing your physical appearance, and fashion sense.

One day I watched you,

Passing by me, walking towards the drinking fountain.

One day I caught you,

Looking back at me, your eyes meeting mine making my body stiff.

One day I saw you,

Carrying that smile on your face, in that moment, I saw no one but you.

One day I followed you,

Only to see you with your friend, laughing, giggling, my heart fluttered.

One day I smiled at you,

Thinking you will somehow see me the way I see you.


One day I dreamed of us,

In fifty   and counting    years, still in love with each other,

Reminiscing moments of how everything started.

One day I will find myself,

On a white dress, walking down that red carpet, on my way towards you.

One day,

Our love will shine as bright as the stars in the night sky.

One day,




We will prove that forever do exist in this world.

But one day I opened my eyes,

See you walking up the stairs.

And that’s when I thought,

In one day, one day.