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My Bucket List

I just felt like writing this type of entry. I cannot concentrate studying for my midterms and I thought about my future and this so right now I am writing this entry. I just wanted to share my bucket list, that hopefully I’ll be able to check off in the near future.

  1. First in my list is to graduate college and find a decent job so I can repay my parents for working hard in order for me to become successful in life.

I don’t really have a second priority so I’ll just put my list in a random order. Most are places I want to go to.

  • Travel to Maldives. I know it is quite impossible right now but hopefully in the future when I become successful I can go there with the people    or a person  who hold(s) a special place in my heart. I know Maldives is really costly but an alternative would be anywhere there is a beach because I really love the sound of the waves.
  • Asian tour. If I have money, all I’ll do is travel to different parts of the world. Aside from Maldives, I would also like to go on an Asian tour and I really want to visit South Korea since I am a huge fan of K-pop and Korean food.
  • Re-visit Palawan with the person I’m going to marry. I love that place so much. It’s very serene.
  • Visit the Philippines and re-learn it’s history. It has been 7 years since I left so I sort of forgot Philippine history. Therefore, I would like to visit places such as Vigan, Intramuros, Luneta, and those places where it is considered a Philippine historical tourist destination.
  • To visit Vatican. And attend a mass with the Pope as the preacher.
  • Bungee Jumping or Sky Diving. I’m not an acrophobic but Sky Diving really scares me. I have always been brave about trying new things and that is one quality I am proud to possess. Because to me, if I face that one thing I fear most I would be able to conquer anything else.
  • Go Scuba diving so I can see marine life from up close. I would like to experience swimming with the dolphins too. I have done snorkelling before so I have checked that off in my bucket list.
  • Meet the Backstreet Boys, Westlife, and 98 Degrees. Hopefully.
  • To find my own Landon (from A Walk To Remember).
  • To be in a relationship. I want my first relationship to be my last. I have never been in an official relationship because of this reason.
  • Have my special someone serenade me, or write a song for me.
  • To receive a handwritten letter. I am old school so I like those things that people call corny nowadays. I am a firm believer that chivalry is not dead.
  • My first date to be on a place that is serene. I prefer a place where there is water (lakes, beach, falls, or river) because the sound of water really gives me my peace of mind. Maybe a place not too crowded, or a place that is only known to the both of us.
  • Someone who will give me their jacket. I don’t know, I just find that act so sweet when a guy gives his jacket to his girl.
  • To receive a weird yet creative gift from someone special.
  • Since I am a huge fan of Disney, I would like to visit the “happiest place on Earth” on my birthday.
  • Get married at church. Beach or garden wedding is nice too but I prefer a church wedding since I want my marriage to be sacred.
  • Learn how to play the guitar. I have one at home and I tried learning it by myself. I only tried. I still can’t play it but hopefully I will be able to play one song.
  • Lose weight.
  • Do volunteer work. I would like to do an outreach program. I participated once back in the day and it really feels great to be able to help somebody who is in need.
  • Fingerpainting. I want to learn how to do it. I am an artist so I appreciate art and I would like to develop my talent in that area. I can only paint using my brush and acrylic so I would like to try something new.
  • To have a room full of Teddy Bears. 
  • To complete my Care Bears. 
  • Help someone to achieve their dream and passion in life.

Honestly, I have so much things I want to do in life. The things here in my list are the things I want to do most, things I want to happen in my life. These are the things I have been dreaming about since I was a kid. Maybe I’ll edit this and add more but for now, I’ll leave it at that. And hopefully, I will get to check these all off, or most of it, SOON.

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The Question of Can We Happen?

If you like someone but you cannot fully express it, do you think you and him can still happen? 

When you know from the very beginning that it is not going to end well, will you still pursue that you and him you are dreaming about?

When you like someone will you be straightforward and let them know? Will you risk something just to have the “we” you are dreaming about? 

What if you are friends with him? Are you able to risk your friendship over something that you are unsure of the results? 

If at first you know that you two are impossible to happen, will you still go after it? Is he worth it? 

You knew the end results.

Would you still go after it? 

If it was me and just my brain, I would not. But my heart gets in the way every single time. My brain tells me to stop but my heart is not listening. It never listens. If I knew the end results, I would rather get rid of my feelings. Delete it. Deny it. As early as possible, I want to avoid developing deeper feelings.

My parents raised me to be a conservative lady. To never show a guy that you like him. And until now, I still live with that upbringing. Well not really. I lied. I once liked a guy but I never really told him I liked him. He felt it because I was too obvious. I knew when he found out that I like him, he wouldn’t push “us.” I got frustrated and my heart got broken. I am not even sure if I have completely moved on from him. I guess I have. When I see him, I get no more butterflies in my stomach. It’s still awkward around him but at least, I guess the feelings are no longer there.

Now my answer to the question of “Can We Happen?”

I think it is a matter of allowing yourself to be just yourself. Life is too short to live with regrets. Personally, things are better if they are unplanned. Let life teach you lessons by making mistakes. After all, we’re only humans.

I like it when I learn from my wrong decisions and actions. Because next time, I know what to do.

So, if you feel like confessing, do it with no hesitations. Just do it.

Accept rejections even though it hurts.

In every pain we receive, we build ourselves to become even stronger.

Let others judge you. As long as you live doing what makes you happy.

Me, I don’t want to live with regrets. Therefore, I must enjoy whatever I have at the moment because like what Dory said “best things in life happen by chance.”

Nothing is permanent in this world, but the memories last forever.

Let your story be the best. Live with no regrets.

So, my answer would be YES.

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To You (In the Future)

Dear,

Where have you been?

Finally, you have arrived

How was your journey?

I know you got lost a couple times

But look, you found your way back to me

You are the gift I have been waiting to receive.

I never asked for a Prince Charming who will be my knight and shining armour

I asked for a friend who will be by my side when times are tough.

I asked for a friend who will make me laugh, who will wipe my tears away.

But God sent me someone who is not just a friend, but an angel,

Who will guide me through my decisions.

Someone who will stay by my side forever.

He who refuses the frown I put on my face.

Endless happiness, your promise for me.

From the moment I met you, I just knew,

That you will fulfill that vow.

Because I saw it all in your eyes.

 

 

 

 

 

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TWENTIETH

…And another year has passed. Surely, time flies by really fast. I am already in my 20s and another memory was collected along the way.

A week      or two weeks       before my birthday, my parents were asking me what I want to do on my birthday, or what I want to get as my birthday present. But I cannot give a proper answer since I, myself, do not know what I want to do on my twentieth. When I was little, I was always excited for Christmas and my birthday since I get presents but when I turned 18, I felt like it is not what I wanted anymore.Honestly, I am not a materialistic person. Simple things make me happy. For example, if you just remembered my birthday and greeted me, or put in the time and effort to make me happy. Simple thoughts, simple acts, the little things. Nowadays, it is the non-material things that make me smile.

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On the day of my birthday when I woke up, I found a present on my study table on top of my Pathology textbook. I was kind of hesitant to open it. I don’t want to be too excited because I tend to jinx myself whenever I do that. Though I have an idea, I still do not want to assume because if it is not what I expected it to be, it will only be frustrating.

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To be honest, I was not really expecting anything from them. I thought they will just ask me to go shopping since I did not tell them what I wanted (but I told my sister that I kind of wanted a polaroid). I did not know that she was going to tell them and actually buy one for me. I felt happy and excited. So, on that day I was really excited to come to school. It was an enough birthday present for me actually, I could not ask for more. But just when I was not expecting anything …

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Okay, the present does not end there. One was enough for me, but I got another one, or two from my friends. We decided to do a potluck in school to celebrate my birthday, again (I’ll talk about the other one later). So, yeah we did a potluck, I brought sushi, my friends brought fruits, ddeokbokki (Korean spicy/sweet rice cake), and cake. Who would have thought they would actually bring cake. So, I came to school around 12:30 – 1 pm. I was so excited to eat already but my friend, Danita told me “Chloie, I’ll just grab something from the car” and my response was “Sure, go ahead.” I thought she will just grab her food from her car but when she came back, she brought a huge black bag with something big inside and she gave it to me. AGAIN, I WAS NOT EXPECTING ANYTHING.

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For sure, you guys can clearly see from the picture above what was inside the huge black bag. I was speechless because I never thought they would give me a huge Teddy Bear on my birthday. I LOVE TEDDY BEARS! I recalled a day when my parents asked if I wanted a watch or a Teddy Bear, with no hesitations I answered a Teddy Bear. I will NEVER EVER switch my Teddy Bear for something else. But back on track, yeah I was speechless. I have a video that my friend took while I was opening the black bag but I looked hella ugly so sorry, nope.

If you notice, I was also holding that minion candy holder (it sings too), I got it from my friend, Kim Bok Joo. She told me her reason as to why she bought it for me but I think it is best if I keep it to myself. We enjoyed the food, and we were all full before going to our lab. But hey, food tastes better if you eat with your friends.

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Red Velvet Cake

Okay, so I mentioned earlier that I was having my birthday celebration with my friends AGAIN. Yeah again, because Friday the 20th of January, I celebrated it with my friends already with some new friends. I did not want to celebrate my birthday on my actual birthdate because we have a midterm the next day, but obviously we still celebrated and I did not even study for my midterm. Going back on track, my early birthday celebration was spent on the south side of Edmonton because we decided to play Escape and also because I have never tried it before, it was my first time. But first, we went to Popeye’s to eat chicken. I do not usually go to the south side because it is too far and my dad does not really like driving to far places. So going there felt like a long drive to me. Anyway, so we went to Popeye’s but there were a lot of people so we decided to eat at my friend’s house (Aleksi’s house). We stayed at her house for an hour or two, not sure I forgot. We ate and I played the video game Tekken once, but I guess I am not born as a gamer so I lost.

Now, my Escape experience story-telling starts. The place we went to is called Escape Emporium. You go into a room and find codes, open the locks, and try to escape. I was really excited since it is my first time. I always wanted to go on one but none of my friends were willing to come with me. We went to the Vampire themed room. I was expecting it to be a big room but it was small and dark. We were only given 45 minutes to escape. I guess I was too excited so when it started, I felt panicky. I was following my friend because I do not have a flashlight (and we don’t have enough). I did not even know what I was looking for, and where to look for it. Fastforward to 10 minutes or less that was left on the clock, we were trying to solve the last lock. I have no idea how to solve it and we already gave up but they gave us one more clue to do math. I think there were only 2 minutes, or a minute left when they gave us the clue. I guess since we were all in panic mode (I guess it was just me), we were unable to do math but I jumped in and solved it. With only seconds left, we opened the last lock and I was surprised there was another room. I thought it was over but they gave us 10 more minutes to try to open the other door to escape. Again, there were locks that needs a code, and there were numbers everywhere. I was just blank the whole time. I felt like my brain was so drained that it cannot function normally anymore. There was one station where we need to get the ball out of a cage but like they say “desperate times call for desperate measures” so we cheated. We used a stick to take the ball out from the cage and we did. In the end, we opened the door but we ran out of time. Though I felt tired after, I enjoyed the game with my friends and new friends. I really had a great time. It was an another first-time for keeps. 

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After the game, we went back to my friend’s house to clean up and pack up. I still have work the next day so I have to go home early and sleep early. I wanted to stay but I can’t. My friend drove me home, but since I was too tired I fell asleep in the car. And when I got home, I could not sleep anymore. I guess I was too happy. So, I went to work the next day like a walking zombie.

“You can go your whole life collecting days, and none will outweigh the one you wish you had back” (quoted by Mitch Albom). Indeed, it is true. Time can never be reversed. Never. The only thing we can do is cherish every moment, every second of our life. Time is a precious gift. We can never rewind the moments but the memories remain.

I have always been grateful and thankful to God for waking me up in the morning. And on my twentieth, the first thing I did was thank Him for giving me another year of my life. I feel satisfied. Though I did not have a big party, I was given a chance to celebrate my special day with the special people in my life. My life may not be perfect, I may not have things (material or non-material) that other people has, but I am thankful for everything I have. I am content. I am happy.

I am happy because I am content.

I thank God for blessing me a great family. For giving me such great friends. This is one unforgettable birthday celebration that happened in my last twenty years. Never had more than one surprise on my birthday.

On my twentieth, I realized I was blessed. Big time. It was not the material gifts that made me entirely happy on my special day. It was the people who made my day special and extraordinary. It was their thought and effort to make me happy on my birthday. It was the time spent with them that is worth for keeps. I am more than thankful to have those people around me.

One unforgettable day. Thank you!

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Thank you for all these gifts! Really appreciate it!
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The 7 Years of Running Man

Ok, I don’t know how I will start this. It’s been a week, or two, or more, since the issue regarding the cast, and the show itself came out. I am still feeling devastated about the sudden announcement of the end of my favourite Korean variety show. And words can’t really express my frustrations right now.

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I started watching Running Man 4 years ago. Seeing the first episode, I already got hooked. It was difficult for me to stop watching for more episodes. There was even a time when I did a marathon of 30 episodes in one day. Oh well, I just could not get myself to stop. Since then, I have devoted myself to watch Running Man every week. And I look forward to Mondays because english subbed episodes of Running Man are out every Monday. Since I am a student, I get stressed with school works, assignments, etc. and Running Man has been my stress reliever. Thinking that I spent my last 4 years with them and I felt like a part of me was ripped off and teared apart, what more to the cast members that spent 7 years together as a family?

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Screenshot from Running Man episode 1

The show is well organized, and I praised the writers for being very creative. Of course, the name tag elimination is what makes the show unique from other Korean variety shows and that is what Running Man is known for. The format was very creative but suddenly, it kind of changed the last 2 or 3 years. It is still Running Man but the trademark of the show which is the name tag elimination game is given less emphasis which made me, and some viewers, a bit disappointed.

However, the members ability to provide laughter for the viewers did not change. Other than that, I’d say the relationship between the members and the staff is what makes Running Man different. The members are just perfect for the show, even though at times, most times rather, they don’t agree on some things.

I seriously do not understand why their ratings in Korea are so low. Well, the show started well until it fluctuated in the last 2 or 3 years. I was thinking that SBS did not mind it’s low ratings because the show itself is popular across the globe, especially in Asia. They have millions of fans around the world, and these people, including me, are probably hurting right now because of one careless move. But still, I am not blaming SBS or Running Man PDs for what happened because I don’t know the real story.

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Screenshot from Running Man episode 134 in Vietnam
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Screenshot from Running Man episode 134 in Vietnam

We all know that nothing is permanent in the world, and everything comes to an end. Nothing lasts forever but the memories. Since Gary left the show, I already thought of the “domino effect” that soon, one by one, members will leave. However, I did not expect it to come so soon. The end results of a one careless act surely did not give positive results. It could’ve ended in a much better way. It was just a mess. It made me frustrated because I believe Running Man deserved better.

I am still saddened by the news. I am writing this entry right after I watch Running Man episode 330. I decided to write this entry because I don’t think I can still go on and watch the next episode. Since the news, I stopped watching. Not because of the misunderstanding that happened between the cast and the staff of Running Man but because my heart hurts seeing them laughing together, playing games together, and to think that soon (a month from now) it will all be gone. I don’t know if I should laugh or cry whenever Jae Suk hits Kwang Soo, or when Jong Kook bullies the members, or when Suk Jin does his body gags. Usually I laugh the whole time I watch Running Man to the point my jaw hurts from laughing, but now I can’t. I just can’t. Thinking that those moments will be gone soon makes me cry. I can’t believe there’s going to be no Running Man 2 months from now.

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Screenshot from Running Man episode 270

Blackpink as guest in episode 330

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Screenshot from Running Man episode 330

I will not hope for any show that will have them together again because there is a low possibility they will be put together again in one show. Honestly speaking, I don’t think I will ever see another group of members with so much chemistry together like the Running Man members. I do watch other Korean variety shows but I noticed one thing that only members of Running Man possess, GENUINITY. I don’t know how will I explain it because if you are an avid Running Man fan, you know what I’m talking about. The members show genuine reactions and feelings on the show. They also treasure their fans and treat them like family. Also, they don’t try hard but their ability to provide laughter just comes out naturally. It is effortless. They may also not notice their own actions while the cameras are rolling, but we viewers do. Those simple caring acts they do to each other make me smile.

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Screenshot from Running Man episode 171

I will surely miss Running Man. The memories they shared in the past  7 years can’t be compared to the memories I had with them in the last 4 years. In the last 4 years, I ran with them. Though I wasn’t physically spending time with them, I supported them. I laughed with them. I cried with them. I cheered for them. They may never know me personally but they will always have a special place in my heart.

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Screenshot from Running Man episode 171

For sure, they will remain in contact with each other. It’s just sad to think we may never get to see them together on camera anymore. They have worked together, built friendship, and became a family in the last 7 years. All I can say is a big THANK YOU Running Man. Thank you our Grasshopper-Yoo Jae Suk, Impala-Ji Suk Jin, Tiger-Kim Jong Kook, Monkey-Kang Gary, Penguin-HaHa, Miss Blank-Song Ji Hyo, and Giraffe-Lee Kwang Soo. I will miss you guys! I don’t think anything can replace Running Man in my heart.

Until we meet again. #7012RM

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The AlDub Phenomenon

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Alden Richards serenading Maine Mendoza with the song “God Gave Me You”

If you’re not yet familiar with the phenomenal loveteam of the Philippines, AlDub, then you better be. This love team is an exceptional one. No LTs has ever done this to me.  Made me a twitter addict and to be honest, the only LT who made me pray for their FOREVER. Their natural chemistry is truly undeniable. The best OTP so far!

Anyway, here are my thoughts about this….

Being a Filipino, I am greatly familiar with Filipino cultures, values, traditions, and their television shows. One day I was scrolling on my facebook feed and saw several people sharing the same video of AlDub. I saw Alden    my ultimate crush     on the video, as well as this girl whose dubsmash videos went viral on social media, Maine Mendoza. At first, I disliked the idea of Alden being paired up with another girl because believe it or not, I was a DenLou (Alden Richards & Louise de los Reyes) fan. I’ve seen them together in several shows and dramas, such as Mundo Mo’y Akin, Spooky Nights, & My Beloved and I am sincerely hoping that they somehow become real. However, I went on watching their kilig moments (because of Alden)……and boom! I got hooked. I couldn’t stop laughing and somehow I found myself liking their tandem. I also found myself liking Maine Mendoza/Yaya Dub. They look great together.  And from then on, I always look forward to what’s going to happen next in Kalyeserye (term provided by Joey de Leon    one of the hosts of Eat Bulaga     as a title to the story of AlDub). Each episode, a lesson learned. Laughter, crying, love, and horror, all types of emotions in one. The smiles they stamp on each people’s face is extremely priceless.Truly making AlDub and Kalyeserye the hottest and most intriguing topic in television and social networking sites such as facebook and twitter.

And to those who are giving negative comments about AlDub and Kalyeserye     though its mostly about AlDub    hold up! Maybe you feel threatened by what they can and will do. If you can’t see the chemistry and magic they possess, there is definitely something wrong with you. But then again, we can’t please everyone!

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Alden Richards hugs Maine Mendoza.

If you still think they are not that popular, then tell me why they sold out all 55,000 tickets for their “Tamang Panahon” episode? Give me a reason why everytime they endorse a product, the sales increase rapidly, about a triple or quadruple times? Why are they always mobbed whenever they’re in a concert, or simply just in a mall show? If you can’t come up with a reason, too bad. You have no right to comment negative things about them, such as them not being that popular, or them just using each other for show. They actually caught the hearts of Filipinos of all ages. Definitely an undeniable popularity, thus making them a phenomenon of this generation.

I haven’t met these two personally. However, based on the people who have met them off cam, they all say the same things about them; they are both humble and very down to earth. With that, I can say that they truly deserve the blessings that God is showering upon them.

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Alden Richards and Maine Mendoza singing “God Gave Me You”

As for me   and the whole Aldubnation    the only thing we can do is pray. Let’s not pressure them to be together right away. Let everything flow naturally. Let them get to know each other even more. With all our prayers, and with millions of people supporting these two, I believe that one day we will see what we’ve been waiting for   and that is them becoming reel to real    and hopefully it lasts forever. All we have to do is pray and let those two do the work. All in God’s perfect time.